EUROTRIP!

so today when i got home from today...from this week, i was seriously depressed...so i decided to do a very american thing...watch tv and do my nails.

ok so i ended up watching Globetrekker...which is not really normal, sure...but it inspired me.

im totally going on a eurotrip next summer. my sister did for her graduation, and i am too. yay, just typing that makes me happy. London! Paris! Amsterdam! Berlin! Madrid!

of course it would be awesome if anyone wanted to meet up and make it a true eurotrip..

ah, brief happiness...

and hey, its a good sign for me....the future still being bright and filled with hope and all....

i know i keep saying this...but im so tired of this. all of this. and im going crazy trying to deal.

i just want to get in, and to college! so i finally reregistered for SATs...of course its been sitting in my acct almost complete for the past month and now that i finally got a credit card # and submitted it, Walton and Pope are filled and so i have to go to LifeU. but more pressing....SAT2s in november....i dunno what to take. and if i screw them up ill just look retarded and not get into anywhere. ah. this is so bad. so my main concern is Math 1 or Math 2...apparently they require practically the same background..i dunno!

moving on...im really sick now. its so bad. a combination of sleep deprivation, nasty germs from school, and stress...my head is aching and my nose stuffy and runny. great.

this sucks.

sooo....that was awesome. just got back from FL. and i have a chem lab to do....and i dont really know what im doing. thats great.

but in the end all of my anxiety tends to end up in 4th block nowadays. damn French....and i used to like it so much, too. urgh.

FL was awesome...a much needed 3days of not dealing with anything...it was so nice. but will it tide me over until turkey day? i dont know...depends how much worse my year could get. and from the looks of dimova's class, worse i will get.

but regardless...i have to focus on the little things that are gonna get me through. and rereading what ive just written...school is way too dominating over my life--i started out talking about this trip..and then school just comes and run it over. urgh.

hmm. so. senior year sucks...so far.

i guess i should say this semester sucks. afterall, the seniors always did complain and yet i never believed them (i always said jr year was gonna be the worst)....so. i have concluded that 2nd semester jr and mostly 1st semester senior year is the worst.

that means...next semester, there better be some freakin awesome parties with some high quality, high proof alcohol to make up for this hell.

but until then...i'll just have to sustain myself with the usual coping mechanisms....buying things, watching movies, eating, sleeping.....procrastinating.

like today...i got some tims. (yes, thats right...An got some timberlands...unlikely isnt it?) and later this week i have to spend some cash at Express (have to? more like going to)before my coupons expire...and hopefully i'll see Snakes on a Plane sooner or later...or maybe Little Mis Sunshine. both are going to be seen....sooner or later

procrastinating...well whats xanga for, afterall...

8 months 27 days....